fades away.

Lately i've been feeling stressed, and very sleepy deprived. Now I got my power point presentation out of the way and lets say it wasn't that bad. I stumbled, but at least I got that done. One more project and I am done with this years projects! Everything seems to be happening so soon. Finals are next week and I'm going to definitely study my ass off. Yeah last week I was"dgaf about school" but now I need to focus and get my grades up! I don't want to disappoint my parents with my grades so I need to do well. I mean my grades aren't that bad but I know I can get some c's up to a B and my B's to an A! Just that feeling of school is about to end and I want summer already. Though things are starting to definitely fade away and with the seniors leaving already just amazes me. I only care about one particular senior. You may all know. But with where we left things off it felt as if I'm saying good bye forever. And I know it is not a good bye forever. Just seems that way. I see you in class, I see you walking, we say hey to each other, we make small talk, but it all just doesn't seem right. It's not me wanting you back, or you wanting me back. I just felt as if I lost someone who meant so much to me. I only knew you this year, but you leaving the school is a time of sadness, happiness, but also a time to take things to the next step. I know for a fact that i'll be crying this week and maybe next week. This is our last full week together before you graduate and it would mean a lot to me if we could at least spend one day with each other and just have a normal conversation. I don't want to get too personal on here, all I ask is for one day with you. 

* On another note this week is going to be hectic..english project needs to be done still! SPANISH WRITING FINAL! Start preparing for finals, BUT daddy's weekend (=