"last blog"

Before my ten days of punishment happens I decided to write. Lately bad things have happened to me, and it is because OF ME. I will admit it. My wrong choice of actions have been caught.
To you guys, There was alot more I should and have planned on saying, but the truth is that I can't because our relationship is now diminishing or somehow not once the same before. I do believe I had to do with that happening. I don't want to be scared of you guys, but I am. I know you guys aren't bad people, because you aren't. I just wish I could go back in time and rewind what I did, but that I can not do. Instead I will be strong because I am, and will not let this bother me, nor will I let this effect who I AM. God can only tell me. I know and WILL make it in life. Yes I did slack off, but don't give up on me now because I will prove it to you both that I will be successful....just watch. So go ahead and give up on me, and look at me like I am some disappointment to you all...that's the vibe I'm getting. I will climb mountains and get get back on my feet. If my summer has ended already,let it be because I have to deal with my consequences and take RESPONSIBILITY for my own actions. It's okay though. Just know that if you want to help and save our relationship I don't think it would get back to normal anytime soon. "My wounds reopened again..."
like I said, i still love you guys.
*My weekend was a breather. Kicked it with family and my relationship with monica is becoming better. Good talks, pulling all nighters for 2 days straight, good vibes, and nice kickin' it with tevin(neighbor haha). And last, but not least...love my daddy and that's all I have to say.