Saturday, June 13, 2009

sir cutesalot, fond.

c-"it doesn't hurt for the baby to take care of the man."
m-"your fuckin' hilarious"
hmmm so I decided to embrace, accept, flaws of a guy...

my ideal kind of guy, i guess:

I want a “man” who has an idea of what he wants to do with his life. I want him to at least try. I want him to be independent. He has to be hilarious. I want him to be able to express himself. I want him to be goofy, but not embarrassing. Sometimes embarrassing is good though! I don’t want him to need me, I want him to want me. I know need is a stronger word than want, because it refers to not being able to live without something.. or in this case, someone. But honestly, I don’t want someone to rely on me like that. I am a very stubborn person, but I have a heart. I just want them to want me. I don’t want them to need me. I feel like it’s a chore. I want him to be sweet. I want them to have their own set of friends. I want to be able to see him when we are free. I want to work around our own schedules. I don’t want him to put me first, although that would be nice, I want him to have his own priorities. I want him to be intellectual, knowledgeable. I want him to know his limits. I want him to be reasonable. I don’t mind fighting, because fighting is healthy. But, fighting too much would just get on my nerves. I am one to scream so I need to work on that, but let alone  I am one to talk it out. I want to be able to sit in the car and listen to my music without him complaining. I want to have the same taste in music, so that we could both enjoy it. I don’t want him to be someone who completes my sentences. I don’t want him to be exactly like me. I want him to be different. I want him to be opposite in some aspects. Loving someone who was exactly like me, would just be very annoying. I want him to teach me new things. I want to teach him things. I want to be able to learn with him. I want to sit in a room and talk for hours. I want to be comfortable. I want him to accept me and my body for what it is. I hope he thinks I’m beautiful, even with all my flaws. I want to be able to do nothing with him, and enjoy every second of it. I want him to have nice style. I want to look good by his side, and me by his side. I want him to forget about my past and his, and focus on the present and future. I want to know everything about him. I want him to tell me whatever he is comfortable with telling me. I don’t want to force anything, nor rush anything. I want to meet up with him at restaurants and watch him get out of his car and smile when our eyes meet. I want him to know how to handle a woman. I want him to know what he is doing. I hate that feeling of not feeling secure in a man’s arms. That bugs me. I don’t want to see him everyday. I don’t want to get tired of him. I don’t want him to expect so much from me. I just want a relationship with him that is pure, healthy, and loving. I don’t want him to rely on me to do things for him. I want to do things for him, I would just hope he would appreciate it. He doesn’t need to devote all his time to me. I don’t need to know what he’s doing every second of the day. I don’t need an update. I’d rather go all day doing what I needed to do and meeting up with him at the end.. to catch up and talk and share our day. I don’t want him to be a complete homebody. I want to be able to go out and enjoy things with him. I want to be able to experience places. I want to eat food with him, every new place we go. I want to make memories. I don’t expect much of a guy, really. Just that they live their own life, and share it with me. I don’t want one life with someone. It gets too complicated. I don’t want to stop him from talking to all these other girls, unless I knew he was going to go and fuck them. I understand that people flirt. It’s inevitable. I just hate it when people cross the line. If he were to ever cross the line with me, I’d rather him break things off and go do it than do it behind my back. The truth hurts, but I can handle it. I want to take pictures of everything, and not have him question why I do it. I want to be able to do my homework or study, and have him in the room w/o complaining. I want him to be understanding to the fact that I have priorities, and that he needs to be patient. I want to him to be friendly, and not too shy. I want him to be able to meet my parents without sounding like a complete queer and getting nervous. I want someone who has good hygiene, but can be a little dirty sometimes. I think flaws of a man might be my favorite thing. I embrace their flaws, depending on the guy. I don’t want him to hold me all the time. I want to have my space. When we’re at a party, I don’t mind holding him or holding his hand.. but he needs to know when to just back off and go play with his friends. I want to be able to drink with him. I want us to take care of each other. I want to be close to his friends, and I want him to be close to mine. If not, it really doesn’t matter. He is what I want, not his friends. I am what he wants, not my friends. It’s just another plus. I don’t expect him to pay for everything, buy me things, or open doors. I just want to be with him. I just want him around. His company is enough for me. It would be nice to have those things, because I’ve never experienced that before.. but I’d rather not get used to it. I need to do things for myself. I want to be able to reason with him. I want us to be able to make reasonable sacrifices. I want us to compromise. I want him to be a good motivation in my life. I want him to be my drive. I want him to be something I work harder for in life, rather than just myself. I want him to be something good in my life. I know i'm young still, but this is just a taste of the kinda guy i would be interested in. 






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