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Friday- was ehh OKAY. I mean pretty productive. Classes were whatevs, but thanks Dabbie for that idea(; umm. thanks to my step dad for lunch(:home chilled and had one of those talks with my parents...the ones where they ask,"so whats up with you and your life." yeah those are always good. Told them a lot of things and they helped me through it:) after talking step dad taking pictures with brandons camera. He loves that thing -_- um asked my dad to take me to rowland high to get my bio book and had to return something. then i asked my dad if i could drive the benz around the parking lot...and yes i got to:) hehehe broke a few rules :x 1. phone while driving. 2.tryna be speed racer[x woops. hehe so fun though! enough driving. said hi to brandon in the gym and saw him topless hahaha. Sushi in chino hills with family+ uncle. Rode with uncle to the restraunt and had a good talk with him too! yummy sushi, good talks, good vibes.home and knocked the hell out. Good way to end my night. 

Saturday-  morning calls with baby, then mom tells me to get up because it was already like 8:20 and we were going to the gym. So hurry to get ready. Finally take my zumba class and we had a substitute:( It was so weird today. Did not like the class at all. haha anyways then home and showered. Hair salon at 11, nothing too exciting cause I still want it long and then in may im going back to chop it all off and mom finally agreed to say it was okay for me to dye my hair or at least put some color in. haha Oh and i love how my mom just wants her hair and everything else to be like me[; hahahahah. Got done like at 1 30ish. Home, finished getting ready then off to Target to buy a toy for this birthday party we went to in chino hills. Chino hills party at some park. Once again babysitter! haha it was pretty cool though. St pattys setup thats whats up. lol um went home like at 5 to change because instead of southcoast plaza we decided to to old town and eat at this korean resturaunt:) mmm my favorite! Days like this i love! So close to buying my sadies outfit but I didnt because my dad said if I wanted to go shopping for my bday might as well do it all in one shot! SOOO IM HAPPPPY FOR THAT((:  ate at the korean resturaunt. Always goooood! Now home doing this and other shit.Good way to end a night.

off topic....I feel like now that I'm trying you dont want to try? I feel that your giving up on us. I thought you wanted to try and I am trying but I am not seeing you try and do your part. Yeah you say I wasnt trying or showing, okay that was SOMETIMES, but now its different. i dont know i just feel hopeless and unsure now of everything. I'm tired of crying every night thinkin and wishin' we can go back in time, but I know thats not in my power to do so. All I know is that I am going to be strong for the both of us and maybe you'll realize that I do love you and want you....maybe now your feelings for me changed? who knows. But if so, please tell me. Well I love you.